MyThreeDaisies

Sometimes, I have a weird way of seeing now from 20 years from now. Most of the time it’s worry, but tonight it’s hope.

I’m watching “16 Children and Moving In”, a show on TLC about a family in Arkansas that has 16 kids! It’s the Dugger family that we’ve seen on TV before, and they are so beautiful. I just told Chris, that if you can afford it, that is the life! All that family, you’re never alone, and there’s always a helping hand.

*Big Sigh*

It’s hard right now with the girls being babies, but in 10 years… they are going to be smart, helpful teenagers. Right now, I have to do everything.. in a few more years, one can set the table, one can change their brother’s diaper, and one can be folding laundry. What a dream! But I know it’s not all fantasy, because I lived it. I griped through every minute of it, but it was real!

I have to pray through everyday. “God, just help me do this moment right.” When I don’t.. it all comes crashing down. And it makes me mad, because.. I can sit and dream and idealize, and it’s all perfect.. but when it comes to making it real, I always fail so miserably.

It’s important to me to see my family be a success. Because I said it would be, and I don’t say something like that, unless I mean it. And with God’s help, it will be. Twenty years from now, when I’m looking at grand parenthood,  I want to be able to say, “You know, it was tough through the early years, but we made it through, and look how great it is now!”

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